Friday, 3 June 2016
Like most humans I craved feeling part of a 'tribe', but in early life, at school and university, felt like an outsider. As a result I would keep myself apart, either by not participating or by acting a role. Subconsciously, this feeling of separateness made me unhappy.
Learning Reiki began a healing of this sad disconnection, bringing a deeper understanding of what being in community means and how it nourishes me. I now value and benefit from participating in community in many forms: my students, the UK and international Reiki groups and other communities such as my choirs. This understanding has come through the Aspect of Usui Shiki Ryoho Reiki known as Mystic Order.
In my early years in Reiki, participating in Reiki gatherings was uncomfortable and a struggle. However in 1994 I attended a gathering with Phyllis Furumoto as special guest. I was interested in the opportunity to learn more about Reiki from her, so overcame my resistance to be present. She described the 9 Elements and 4 Aspects of Usui Shiki Ryoho. I recognised the way I had learned Reiki in the Elements and also understood 3 of the Aspects: Healing Practice, Personal Development and Spiritual Discipline. The fourth Aspect was a mystery: Mystic Order.
The 'reality beyond the 5 senses' is something familiar to me from life in Reiki. It led me to explore the 'greater reality beyond what is known', particularly through my involvement with The Reiki Association. It was often difficult: like many aspects of Reiki it's the challenge that creates growth! Feelings I had experienced in communities since childhood became more conscious: not feeling a part of the whole, not being acknowledged or valued and wanting to escape before I was pushed out. This brought up some of my negative views about myself which was often painful, causing me to hide behind a 'role', such as being the Administrator.
However Reiki helped me to stay in connection, in spite of the difficulty, which brought me to experience and understand the benefits of being in community. I learned that being part of a caring community is something I need; that to experience the connectedness with a greater whole that goes beyond the senses - even though challenging - nourishes something fundamental in me as a human being.